I Am Done With Bad Hair Days...

I'm done with bad hair days. I'm sick of looking in the mirror and wishing I hadn't. I hate looking in the mirror is the truth of it. I hate lying awake at night and wishing I could be someone else. I wish I didn't hate who I was. I miss being in love with life. Loving life is a joke right now. I just wanna die some times. Those days where I don't eat lunch... Or supper for that matter. Because I feel ugly. Very ugly. ...I wrote that on February 11. I think every single girl has felt like that. And the ones that haven't, they are a whole lot stronger then I am. Oh some nights, I just want to give up. Those days I don't eat, because I think that will make me think more of myself. Ladies, we've been there. I am here to admit it, that I feel ugly, that I've felt ugly. I had a bit of an issue, and I guess I still do, with dieting. It's a want. It's a constant thought. No, I've never been anorexic, but I wanted to be. And I was getting closer and closer every day, until some friends, and my mom stepped him. And without them, I would be. Ugliness....And then when I let myself eat...more then I should, I just feel terrible about myself, like I've failed. That is the worst feeling. Failure. I could just cry thinking about those tears that I've cried, and that I know you've cried too. Media needs to stop with the impression of what beautiful is. What true beauty is. It is not plastic surgery. It is not minimal clothing. It is not cover girl makeup, or brand name clothing, and it is definitely not being something you are not. It is being YOU. I am a complete hypocrite if I say that though, I know I struggle to believe those words! But girls and guys too, we have to start to believe WE ARE PERFECT! There is not one thing you should change about yourself. Why change perfect?!? Please, listen to me. It's not worth skipping meals and self abuse, and all those other things. You are BEAUTIFUL, alright? I hope you can hear me in your head. Never. Ever. Give up.