I Wanna Be Strong

When I was little I was always the one to feel everything so intensely, and then I would get myself wrapped up, too tight and then try to stay strong, and cry. I am the same Ashton I was 7 years ago, now. A heart for everyone, so I would get myself involved, and even if it wouldn't be my issue, I'd try to help out anyways. Well, I've done it again. This time, it is more then just a fight over a skipping rope. It's serious. I wanna be strong, but I seem to run away when it gets tough. At school, I have a huge decision to make that may or may not cost me a friendship, and if not, it could cost a lot more then that too. I don't know what I want to do, but I know either way will not be easy. I called my dad from school he's like "How are you doing?" And I didn't say one word I just broke down crying and dad's like "Want me to come pick you up?" I just gave a little mhm and 5 minutes later he was in front of the school, there to pick me up. My safe haven, my dad. Talking on the way home, I have a gameplan now. But why couldn't I keep it together at school. I hate crying, and I'm not giving up! I'm going to pray and make the right decision, but I just can't handle this by myself. I wish I was stronger. To be more in control of how I react. Sometimes you just can not stop the tears. My first response is to want to make everyone happy with me again. Whatever I might do is going to breach some kind of friendship. Even if only for a while. Trust. I want to be trusted, but when do you have to step in? I need to talk to somebody :/ I don't know what to do! Please, prayers. Thanks.